Thursday, June 23, 2016

Pebbles McGillicuddy rides again!

I know. I know.  It’s been months.  So much has been happening it’s hard to keep up.  And actually, a lot of it has been so life changing that it’s difficult to put it into words… but I’m going to try.

The much-heralded arrival of Alexander Duncan, my adorable grandson, features prominently in this chapter.  He is a joy-filled little being, and although I have only seen him once, that’s going to be remedied! They arrive back “home” in a week.  For good. This “Nama” couldn’t be happier!  (They decided to name me “Nama” – short form for Namaste…)

I also decided it was time to test the adage, “you can’t teach an old dog new tricks”.  I’m not saying that I’m an old dog, but I was starting to believe that it was time to just accept that there are some things that just weren’t going to change – like my reluctance to commit to a long-term goal and stick with it.  So I started small… I said I was going to walk an average of 10,000 steps a day for a year.  Yes.  I am a FitBit afficionado.  Well damned if I’m not on track!  I’m so impressed with myself I’m applying it to other regimens in my life and I’m feeling really great!  Wow!  Of course I’m inspired by my wee Alex… I want to be able to keep up with him!  So far, that’s looking pretty feasible!

Along the same lines… who knew that I could start a completely new career at this stage in my life?  A dear friend of mine introduced me to the world of movie making and I have become quite enamoured with my new role in clearance and product placement. Sounds mundane, but I happen to love it.  It's a perfect fit for me. I’m meeting tons of new people and learning a lot about the art of turning creative thoughts into visible reality.  And… I can work from home and keep my other interests on the front burner at the same time!

What else… oh yes… I’ve been crossing things off on my “to do” list… corrective eye surgery, dental work, rodent removal from the under the hood of my beloved Mini (yikes), updating my will, you know, the usual stuff we love to put off for a rainy day…

But I digress.  In this hiatus of non-writing, a lot of time has been devoted to a “who am I and why am I here?” type of inquiry.  It continues to be an amazing journey of discovery and healing and I could write a book about it.  Let’s just say that I’m working on truly living visibly as who I really am inside, vs. striving to sustain a persona that everyone will approve of. Ironically, I found I was actually suppressing my joie de vivre… my essential presence.  I took to heart the oft-quoted passage by Marianne Williamson…

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

… and I jumped into the village fountain. (Well come on... there were bubbles in it!)

Vibrantly yours,


P.S. You all know me as Buns. Alex et al refer to me as Nama.  My newest moniker cracks me up… At a recent backyard BBQ on the DODA (Deck of Do Anything!), I had to put my hair up in a bun because it was getting hot in the sun… one of the guys said I looked like Pebbles and added McGillicuddy just for the fun of it.  It has stuck and I laugh every time I hear it…

And how about a little Bonnie Raitt for ya?  This woman inspires me to the moon…

Wednesday, January 6, 2016

The Universe is Asking

Happy 2016. Oh it feels ever so much lighter. Can you feel it? There is a note in the air, a tone that is sweeter, distinct in its calling for all the dreams that have been germinating to bear fruit. 

When I think about manifesting a desire into reality, I have always known that faith plays a big part in the process. The belief that what you want is on its way and is coming to you, special delivery, expedited post, overnight Fed Ex, that certainty, is an essential ingredient in manifesting 101.  And then I pulled an oracle card for this year. 


What!!!  I love this. What I want, wants me!!!  How bold, how fantastic and how very tangible. It feels different than simply believing that what I desire is on its way. There is no measure of worthiness or merit or earning inherent in this statement. The reading went on to say, that the genuine desires of your heart are the sacred purpose of the soul, swathed in pleasure. Can you feel the release of freeing energy when you let this land?

To me it confirms my sense that this is not the time to dream small! You do not have to regulate your hearts yearnings, exert control, or subdue them. 

What you want wants you. Stop moderating, settling for crumbs or so called realistic versions of what you think might be feasible. Go for the big picture. What you want wants you. Dare to dream big and KNOW that the universe will connect the dots, you are only called to claim your desire and not shrink from the certainty that what you want, wants you. You are an energy being! As Wayne Dyer said, be realistic, believe in miracles. I am so enamored of this dance with the cosmos it almost feels romantic in its intensity.  What a glorious mindset.

And so it comes down to listening to the yearning of the heart. My heart knows what it wants and I become aware that at times I may have tempered that desire as if making it smaller, more manageable would increase the likelihood that it would come to me. Well no more trying to tame the voracity of what I long for. I will not settle for crumbs or managing my vision in bite size pieces. Let magnitude reign. What I want wants me. 

What you want, wants you!

NOW. Yup right now. 

Branded by my happy dance,

Authentically yours,