Monday, February 18, 2013

The Paradox of Healing

I have been wondering about health of late and it occurred to me that even following the right diet, eating healthy, a positive mindset, emotional and spiritual awareness, is no guarantee of healing a physical issue. I have been working with my health for a few years, clearing energy, getting to the root of possible beliefs that may be the source of dis-ease and still there is no change on the physical plane. So I wonder…how come?  What if trying to get rid of the discord is my contribution to maintaining the state.

What I mean is when a person gets ill they will fight, engage in a battle to rid themselves of the condition. Seems like a human enough response. And yet if one believes as I do, that inherent in every event, encounter or circumstance, is a beneficial intent, a special delivery if you will, sometimes wrapped up in a not so pretty package… well then the natural thing to do would be to open it up and wonder what its positive intention really is.

Perhaps we are still needing to learn something from the illness. If rest and self care is a need that is not being met the function of the dis-ease could be to ensure that rest occurs.

 If our lives are not fulfilled the illness could promote a “no time like the present attitude” to invite living life to the fullest.

Perhaps we are actually more comfortable dealing with pain that we would be with the unfamiliar joy of complete health. The absence of pain either physically or emotionally could seem entirely foreign if one has lived with many years of coping or struggling. The intent of the illness could be to illuminate this mindset and correct it.

Life is not meant to be a struggle. Challenges occur sure, but what if our task is to navigate them with grace and ease no matter how difficult the stormy seas. I like surrounding myself with people who know this and align with the task, not just give it lip service. It helps me remember.

So on that note when Buns suggested an Energy Reading that is part of her spiritual practice I said yes without missing a beat. Perfect timing with all my current meanderings.

I arrived early, was led to a row of 5 chairs with one empty. I naturally slid into the empty one, totally missing that there was a lone chair facing all the others. Unless I was going to read myself I was in the wrong spot. Weird… when I switched to the solo spot and felt the intense scrutiny of the four novice readers looking at me I still felt like I was meant to be reading them. And then the chair across from me was filled by Kelly and I settled in for receiving information.

It was fascinating, illuminating, interesting and finally after about an hour... transforming. As I asked my question about the root of my health challenge opening to its positive intention, I heard that I was still creating a paradigm that was looking at it as something separate. I was looking outside of myself. As the penny dropped, it was not a mental awareness but rather a shift of energy as I literally slid back inside and centered as Self.

Ah…be IN relationship with it. I had thought that was what I was doing and yet in this moment, as I relaxed and sank into sensation I actually felt the difference between mentally thinking about the relationship and BEING in relationship. Wow..what a gold nugget.

I have created a belief that tells me that my safety rests in understanding. That is limiting if my only way to understand is through the mental body. So a clunk, a drop and ahhhh… the words “I am intact” landed with a sigh of shifting sensation.

Tears are the only response for the depth of gratitude when one returns home to oneself, especially when you hadn’t realized you had left.

Thanks to the brave souls who offered their gift to me in the form of an energy reading.  I felt welcomed and nourished.

We all have the power to heal and yet it is only in our connection to the quantum field that softness is generated, acceptance of our wholeness and the knowing that anything but this state is actually illusion.

First within. Then without.

Branded by faith,

Authentically Yours

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