It’s amazing
who comes into your life just when you need a prod in the right direction.
Those jolts only hurt if we resist…but I am getting ahead of myself.
I have never been a huge fan of back adjustments
and just the thought of being cracked into shape when I am in pain or spasm is
too much to contemplate. I only found myself on a chiropractors table because my
Chinese Medicine Doctor http://www.tanyagee.com/home.html ( she is a real treasure) spoke so highly of him and he was just down
the hall, plus after acupuncture, pain killers, and heating pads, my lower back
was refusing to co operate and relax. Let’s call this state desperate.
I had been in agony all week, couldn’t walk or
sit kind of agony, muscles spasms so fierce it made me want to cry like a baby.
I told him I didn’t much like adjustments. He said if you can’t touch the floor
after I am done with you on the table we may have to adjust, but let’s see what
your body wants. And with that he started pulling and stretching and digging
into my muscles while at the same time getting me to dish. He mentions the
connection between the lower back and emotional issues of loss and transition. I
start talking…yup lots of that going on. I spill my guts, feelings ooze down my
cheeks and I am no longer focused on his physical maneuverings, I am letting
go.
“Do you know what this is intuitively, he
asks. I nod. “You don’t have to take on other people’s pain”, he says.
Yup, those
lights bulbs are popping as I agree that is what I do when there is extreme
loss and I feel powerless to help those I love, those who are suffering.
I let go of that too and in that moment so did
my back. I bounced off the table and touched my toes. None of this is the prodding I was referring
to, it was the prelude.
I came back
a week later for a tune up. “Oh so you drink greens”, he said as he eyed my thermos
filled with blended spinach, kale, sprouts and parsley. Somehow this lead to me
talking about my slow metabolism and how unfair it was that I eat so healthy
and yet cannot easily lose weight. That’s when he got firm and refused to
accept my responses. "Do you want to lose weight?" he said.
“Of course,”
I replied.
“Then you
will! Make a commitment, you have to want it.”
“I want it.
I want it. I also want ease and softness and living with a gracious relaxed quality.”
I insist.
“Oh you want
your cake and to eat it too. “he smiles. “Do you realize you have just described
your body?”
I don’t get it for a second. Soft, easy,
relaxed? Really?
“Why not just
accept yourself the way you are? “he offers.
Yes I have
been here before. But here is the smack
down. He refuses to accept my story or reasons for why the weight doesn’t just drop
off. He challenges my ego and I like it. After
listening to myself, ‘yeah but’ him for almost an hour I finally hear it
myself. The story I am running with is no different than when clients of mine
complain about a situation and yet rather than staying committed to action that
would change it, keep reinforcing it by believing themselves powerless. By believing
the details are real they actually limit the outcome. Worse yet…generate the
outcome.
Now I don’t
have a lot of tolerance for repetitive stories and you can imagine how hard I
laughed when it landed that I was doing just that. Looping around ‘not fair’, ‘can’t
do it unless I starve myself’, ‘slow metabolism’, ’soooo unfair’. Well hell…maybe my metabolism is slow…so
what! I can guarantee it will stay that
way if I keep repeating those words.
I realize that
if I created my story, I can also drop it and create a new one.
And that is
the plan. Physically, emotionally, spiritually….I am dropping my story. I am
leaving my name at the door because our names are the identity part of ourselves
that hold the story. I am claiming my power to shift my perception and create
any desired outcome.
So I want my
cake and I want to eat it too. Yup, that’s what I want. Thanks Doc, both for
fixing my back and sticking up for the truth that we may not be able to control
everything that happens in life but we definitely can control the way we
perceive it.
If you are a
fan of light bulb moments and tuning into your body/mind connection this is the
chiropractor for you.
Now off to
the drawing board of my unconscious and imagination. I am going to feel myself
into the very thing I desire. And the raw vegan dessert pictured above will
help. Gorilla Food
Branded By: Acceptance
Authentically
Yours,
Marty
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